astral weeks

welcome to the duldrums. these are the halycron days my friends tha calm before the storm. soon this calm may well turn into a hurricane.

there's been some days during the last week or so without computers, so i will try to catch stuff up.

today was a wonderful day, spent sitting on my porch, skipping class and preparing mentaly and spiritually for the times to come. i am going through my midlife crisis a little bit early, but who cares. i have lived more than the wrinkles on my face or my 22 years should normally allow, so i don't worry about the whole thing too much. i made a fun purchase today. i call it the joy machine. you can't get near it without smiling. i also received a great album in the mail today which i have been unable to take out of the cd player.

astral weeks is, as was described to me by the illustrious J.Gloyd, the quintessential winter album. van morrison has more soul than a boatload of new musicians, and this very well attests to that. just check out the cover for crying out loud...

im not too sure what these next few weeks will hold. we're fast approaching the last days of the manor. J.R. Cash has gone on to be with the Man, and im listless and wandering again. i need $25,000 for the senior show that i want to do, and i don't even have $25 Who knows if it will even work out. i know it could be breath taking. we'll see if there can even be any life breathed into it i guess.

dmh is going back to michigan. dead mike is going back to his casa to be with the familia, and i am heading over to the bijou with J.Gloyd. No matter how much i try to be into where i am at, i just don't feel my heart there. i am at peace, but not content. the Lord has blessed me in my life with a peace that passes all understanding no matter what the situation, but im not able to accept my life as it is now. there's got to be more than this. i am tired of putting in time for something i am not even sure i want. society tells me i need a degree, but since when have i ever listened to 'them'. i just need something really big i guess. i gotta remember to ask.
now i get to do some homework
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